Mi, Yo mismo y Yo
(Me, Myself and I)

“Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.”
- Chuck Palahniuk (American freelance Journalist, Satirist and Novelist. b.1961)

Merrowen -- a name that I considered as the first gift that I ever received from my lovingly parents, Errol and Rowena. Gladly to have it, to have my own personality, to have my own identity and to be known by everybody but It seems like my name is very unique and sometimes, it affects myself. Many of my past instructors didn’t know my name because of its uniqueness and it is very unhappy on my part when they keep on asking me what my name is all over again. Actually, it’s very annoying. I really don’t know how to introduce myself to other people, how to say my real name in a manner that they will perfectly said it… It’s very hard. I passed through the tunnel of insecurity, envy and being jealous to my fellow classmates so I just let time traverse and other people can know my name. Now, I’m just smiling when I remembered those times when I’m crying at the corner of our room because they’re pronouncing my name incorrectly which can cause a bad mood. I don’t like to hear it.

At 6, I already knew that Santa Claus was not true… he does not exist though but his powers of influencing kids are very great. As I can remember the scenario of 2000 Christmas, I always think about Mr. Clause. Is he coming to our house because as far as I know, I’ve done good deeds this year and is he giving me my special gift for this Christmas? Many years passed by but there is no Santa that I saw but for now, I consider Santa Claus as the reflection of how people united to have a joyful Christmas.

Gleeful? Yes, I am. Some of my friends told me that I’m a light-hearted person; I know how to win a friends easily, make them laugh because I splash humorous/corny/non-sense jokes but sometimes they said that I should stop it ‘coz there are times that they are rolling on the floor because of too much happiness… just kidding. I don’t know the reason when there are times that they don’t like my jokes but as far as I’m their friend, I will assure that they are always smiling, laughing though my jokes are not working. I really want to see happy faces, hear happy thoughts and a positive aura on the spirit of everyone because I believe that happiness makes the world go round, it is opulence and a special gift that you can give to everybody without any fees.

Writing and reading – i love to read stories and novels, writing poems and some short stories from my imaginative mind because I thought that reading and writing makes me see the world and its society. I really want to explore different places, to see different things and to encounter other people. In short, I am like “Dora the explorer.”

I always sing when I had a bad day. I want to hear my voice so that my head will stop thinking about those bad things. I don’t like to be sad, lonely and mad because all I really want in life is fulfillment and happiness.

I’m a family-centered person; I always want to see my 5 siblings and their own family at least twice a week, to have fun with them and to their children for us to be happy. I always go out with my parents so that it will be a reward for doing great things in school. It is really nice, right?. All I really want for them is to be happy, full of hope and to have positive thoughts. That’s the best thing that I want to see from them.

“Enjoy life to the fullest,” when I was a kid, I always thought that life is so easy; playing, eating and sleeping were the things that I’ve done during my childhood. As I open my eyes … I see that life is a combination of ups and downs, struggles with happiness, and problems with unknown solution but there are three persons that I hold onto; my family, myself and my God. Have faith on God so He will give what is best for you, helping you to find the unknown solutions to your problems and loving you eternally. I love God, my family and everything that He created.

Life is like the tv program “Survivor” whether the challenges are greatly bad and you think you will give up but always hold on to whoever your strength come from, have faith in God and do whatever it takes ‘coz at the end of the day, you will get your prospect reward. Always face your problems and struggles, don’t give up because there is God and your loved-ones who are still supporting and helping you through your happiness and sadness. Facing your fear is a good deed so I always face my fears.

Those are the things that I can write about myself. I just describe my personality and my vision in life because that is the thing that builds my own self.